long time no talk and shit.

i haven't been doing much of the writing in online journals thing in public for the last...long time.

i still have my mp3 blog, the selector, which i post in pretty often, and then i have this thing where i write for a couple people in like a super-deep way that is infinitely more satisfying than anything i've done writing-wise on the internet for a long long time, so there's that.

ok, here's the thing. i don't want to do the "here's what i've been doing for the last year or two since i told diaryland to suck it" thing, because seriously, who gives a shit? i barely do, so i am figuring you don't either.

i stopped writing in a public way on the internet a long time ago because someone from my work found my diary/journ and started telling lies about me, but i don't work with that person anymore, and more over, i don't really give a shit about what people at work think of my online life anymore, so fuck it, two tears in a bucket, namasayin?

if you care at all, i would love to invite you to check out the selector, though, especially because i have started teaching myself how to mix together existing tracks of music into sorta-new things, it's really fun! also, i have been taking pieces of myself talking and mixing it in, so if you're interested at all in thaaaaat, check out the latest two mixes, "reaching out, letter writing, 2am" and "the well". i also make covers and everything for the mixes and it's been where i have been focusing most of my creative energy, so fancy that, if you will.

in other news, i have recently found the only friend i made in college, shane, and it's so crazy great to get to know him again.

actually, doods, i have been super-happy lately. things have really started to come into focus for me, things are going really well at work, i've gotten a lot healthier and lost a shitton of weight and have mad amounts of energy and i'm pretty much happy all the time.

my most natural face these days is smiling.

i still live in seattle and it's still bomb. i still spend most of my time alone but it's pretty much by choice. the friends i do have are interesting and genuine people and they are brave, which makes me admire them.

but you know, i've discovered that i'm brave too and that is so good to be able to say.

oh! other news--i am going to italy in may to visit my brother who is there for a year studying art. i got like three weeks off! i am hoping to be able to spend a couple of days on the east coast visiting friends in ny/nj and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaalso then when i'm in italy i am hoping that my brother and i, and my girl jenny who is going to be my traveling partner will be able to spend some time in morocco, doesn't that sound like the best time??