2002-07-28 & 2:17 a.m. : capillaries, road maps
i feel like my insides are raw. what is that? no, really. i mean, i know i am full in there, with organs and blood and tissues and whatnot. but why do i feel hollowed out and raw? i don't process things well lately. everything is super 8 films, with no soundtrack. my limbs are empty and sore, the boxes that surround me in the basement are like a kingdom. i want a ceiling with pipes coming out of it, like a highway system or a map to someplace i have never been. i'd like to hang ribbons from the pipes, i'd turn on a fan and imagine they're on poles, lined along a beach near where i grew up. flying and red, the sky grey against them, criss-crossing like veins, or the capillaries that are like a lattice on the whites of my eyes. a sheild for birds to fly through, and hands to grab. |