i have been up since like, 8, and it's all been ass.

first of all, i went to the opthamologist and got a prescription for oral anti-biotics rather than the topical drops i had been using to battle the alien. the opthamologist said that the drops were like rubbing anti-biotic ointment on my tummy to combat an infection in my appendix.

HI, DOCTOR AT MY PCP'S OFFICE, WHY DIDN'T YOU KNOW THAT?

even i thought to myself, "what the shit? isn't this alien INSIDE my eyelid? how the frack is this going to help anything???" but could i say that to the doctor? noooooooooooo. why? because he's a doctor and i'm the person taking up his time: WHICH IS HOW HE TREATED ME.

i hate that office. seriously.

i love a couple of the doctors there, but the rest of the staff, by and large, suck so totally badly, from the front office right on up. they are douches.

anyway, i have to take ginormous horse pills of anti-biotics for the next 5 days in anticipation of scalpels being thrown at my eye from the other side of the room or whatever totally safe procedure they are going to be doing with sharp metal things and my eye on tuesday. i hope for reals i do get an eyepatch, because that would fucking own you.

i am seriously pissed about this, though. i mean, i went to the doctor's office more than needed this week, which equals wasted money on co-pays, not to mention prescriptions that didn't need to be filled.

FUCKING AWESOME JOB, DOODS.

i think if they were nicer to me i wouldn't mind, but being treated like a pain in the ass because i am sick, on top of not getting great care really makes going to the doctor shitty. i am always nice, and thankful and try to be a good patient. i am thankful that i have insurance so i can pay for healthcare at all. i know that i am lucky.

but now i am FUCKING PISSED OFF. it just feels shitty, you know? it's not like i wouldn't rather be almost anywhere but the doctor's office. i'm not going because i like bugging them.

i need their help and they are doctors/healthcare professionals.

WHAT IS THEIR FUCKING GLITCH? and regardless, IT'S NOT MY FAULT, STOP BEING A DOUCHE.

in other news, i am a couple years late but last night i discovered why people like goldfrapp.

i'm going to go lay down and pretend i don't have the most annoying 4 day headache rockin' right now.

i'm also going to try not to puke up the anti-biotic, which is probably going to be a losing battle.

i am so annoyed right now, i don't even want to watch west wing.

i just want to lay down and hug mels.

hopefully i'll feel less pissy when i wake up.