i feel like every decision i make is the wrong one.

i am far too overwhelmed to even see clearly, and i don't know what to start on first.

i don't think i can do this alone anymore.

i'm afraid things won't change before i get sick or worse.

i'm afraid i won't change before i get sick or worse.

i think i might finally be defeated.

i am seriously considering moving home.

the thought of being in california again scares me almost beyond reason.