after three days of unbound surliness and general hatred for people i woke up today refreshed, happy and not at all wanting all people to die fiery deaths.

is it because i got the right amount of sleep?

is it because i had deep deep dreams?

is it because innocence mission is playing?

is it because i talked to franny last night?

is it because i can feel autumn in the air?

i don't know! i don't care!

i am looking for someone who makes me feel as soft and real and fragile as karen peris' voice.

i am dreaming about waking up on autumn sundays in oakland, with niki making coffee in the kitchen and jon pulling on my toe to wake up and share the day.

i am so happy not to be surly and angry feeling anymore. it's such a gross feeling.

i hope i can find the hands i was holding in my dream last night. i couldn't tell whose they were.