2002-04-17 & 10:49 p.m. : anything anything anything
janet jackson, you now frighten me. that doesn't mean i don't want to touch your ass. badly. i am sitting here and i am reading, and i am having a 1996 moment, listening to sleater kinney, thankful for audio galaxy. and i am a little twisted up, recognizing how much things are tying their little loose strings up and then going away and i am going to pull all my strings together and go away and then i will be in this whole other place. it's so exciting, and weird, and kind of good and kind of sad and it occurs to me, i wish i were tangled around someone, whispering in their ear, "but i don't know what i'm doing," and then this other person, this warmth and something else, they could whisper back, "me neither. but that means we can do anything." so i just kind of wrap my arms around my shoulders and i whisper to myself "but i don't know what i'm doing, for real," and i'll just pretend like i can hear the anything and feel the something else because it's a lot better than not hearin' or feelin' nothin' at all. |