2002-01-06 & 3:05 p.m. : apologizing again

i am wondering about what it means that i don't really care that much.

i mean. i care, of course.

but how many times do you have to apologize for who you are before the other person stops expecting you to be someone different?

i don't ask her to be different than she is, i just deal with her as she is.

she, however, doesn't work that way.

and i don't really feel like apologizing again.