2002-05-03 & 2:36 p.m. : blue in green
when i get given sweet things...when they come to me unexpectedly, and they make me smile that perfect kind of crooked smile, where my eyebrows knit themselves together and i bit my lip on the left side like that, and i sort of fidget with my hands?
when i get given sweet things...when they come to me unexpectedly, and they make me smile that perfect kind of crooked smile, where my eyebrows knit themselves together and i bit my lip on the left side like that, and i sort of fidget with my hands?
it's real hard for me to keep that to myself, i want to show, and say "see? see see?!"
but now...lately?...newly...i am going to teach myself to keep them mine. i am going to teach myself what it is to fold up the letter quietly and soak in it alone for awhile.
i will be the girl with a special box of secrets under my pillow. i will trace their shapes before i fall asleep. i will say their names with a soft blue voice.
