what the fuck has happened to me?

i'm seriously going through something that i think most people go through in their early twenties. or at least it seems that way.

i want to go out and do EVERYTHING. i want to try EVERYTHING.

what the hell? i used to be scared of everything.

i don't feel scared anymore.

what the hell is going on? SERIOUSLY.

i want to try new drugs and go dancing and like, paint and draw birds and play with minty and maybe find even more new friends.

whatever happened to me in the last week, i feel like everything's broken open.

does this happen to other people? do they go from being totally shy and afraid to go outside to wanting to find everything new they can get their hands and minds into?

seriously, every night i feel like going out dancing and having fun.

i mean, i haven't really done that yet, but soon i will.

it's a big enough change for me to even feel like it.

i'm fucking pumped.

i'm going to the salon tomorrow for some pampering. it's amazing what you can afford when you're not going out drinking every night, or spending about $30/wk on cigarettes.

next paycheck, i'm gonna continue the pampering and get a pedi.

also, i figured out what amelia's theme song is. it's "micro mini cool" by takako minekawa.

go download it, and imagine her running knock-kneed around my apartment, chasing the shiny catnip ball of death.

i'm gonna go dance to cheesy house now.