the last thing i do every night is go outside and have a smoke and read and just kinded end things for the day.

and it was freezing outside even though i am wearing three shirts and socks and slippers and my big thick coldweather coat.

my fingers are like icicles right now.

but that's besides the point, this is what i mean to say:

then i come inside, and turn off all the lights and make sure things are square before i get into bed.

and this is the thing

the last light i turn off is the kitchen light

and there is this moment right after i switch it off

right before my eyes adjust to the dark

it's like the whole world disappears