2003-08-30 & 4:17 p.m. : my throat is closing up

so i guess i'm flying into oakland on thursday night, then flying out to new york the following morning.

my grandmother is dying, the funeral is next sunday.

the west coast family (read: my mother, brother, sister and myself [my father's too ill to travel]) is convening in oakland and then flying together out to the east coast.

i haven't seen my mother in almost two years.

this is a really shitty way to meet again.