2004-08-30 & 1:25 a.m. : sometimes the idea of so many eyes makes me feel naked and alone in a desert.

i started drawing birds tonight.

i wish i had a scanner.

i have to wake up early to do laundry.

i feel like quitting my job.

it's not like something bad is happening there.

i just feel that free right now.

i want to marry kimura michiko or tetsuo ikeda. thanks to itys25 for introducing me to ikeda.

my heart breaks in 15 different places knowing i didn't think of these paintings and illustrations.

but i've started drawing birds.

i'm going to take the money i am not spending on booze and cigarettes and i'm using it to buy paints. and medium. finally.