i wiped away a hot, sexy tear when i learned of his departure, and have been staring longingly at his door all morning.

he looks so good today, too. his hair is cut and he's wearing glasses and a vneck sweater and it's blue.

blue's a real good color for him.

he smiled at me really big this morning.

Hot Exec, i will miss you and your Hot Exec freckles and your Hot Exec dumpy ass.

it's so cold outside that the sky is filling with huge white clouds from the paper factory!

and sometime while i was out last week they cut down all the corn outside my window.

everything's going barren for winter.

i got like 3 hrs of sleep, if that. i slept all weird and f'd up.

oh, and that garlic/honey/red wine thing totally worked. thanks chicagokid! i drank too much, but i felt great. and today? only slightly cracked out!

maybe tonight i'll sleep nice and long. oh that would be wonderful.