2002-10-19 & 8:50 p.m. : please pleas please let me get what i want this time
i talked to my brother today and i am no closer to figuring out where i'm going to move. and now, my brother is beginning to worry that the money may not come through, so i may not be moving anywhere at all. i have to re-adjust to thinking this is a real possibility--that i'll have to stay in iowa until at least this time next year--again. for awhile, i was as good as gone. i cannot worry about this as i have no control over it. i hope i get to leave though. today's trip to the store with cassie notwithstanding, i'm so lonely. i'm sick of listening to my friends over the phone or via this box. i haven't touched a person in months. a person hasn't touched me in longer. and soon winter is going to come. please please please, let this all work out. |