2003-02-04 & 11:17 p.m. : my bed smells like flowers, my pillow cases are soft like summer

i've often said, that if i could be a song, i would like to be either "cigarettes and coffee" or "just one more day" by otis redding.

i am sure you understand why.

but, right now, tonight, in what i have to come refer to as our "underground lair", i am having a moment. a strange, non-otis redding moment.

right now, i believe that i could be no prettier, no more like a perfect girl than if i were "robot hero" by noriko tujiko.

and i was wearing april cornell clothing.

but not that crazy spring/summer line junk. i mean the fall april cornell clothing.

you know the type.

with big clunky men's shoes. and stockings held up by silk garters, like in henry and june.

and lipgloss, that smells and tastes like berries.

but the real kind. with cream.