so i come into work this morning and what's in my email inbox?

a letter from your boy. aww guys!

it made my whole gross morning.

which believe you me, was greeeewwwwwwwwwssssssssssssssssssss.

first of all, jon slept with me last night randomly--i don't know why. it was weird, i like, asked him if he wanted to (which is so totally random of me) and he was like, 'whoah i was just about to ask you that.' and then he did the international motion for "yo, you and i are right here" [finger v put to eyes, then motioning up and back as if there is a special v connector betwix my mind and his].

i think it's because he just seemed so sad last night when i picked him up from work and i didn't want him to have to go be alone in his cold basment, you know? it was all nice and clean and cozy in my room, and we were hanging out, and i just didn't want to be like, "hey, cool hanging out, bro, see you when i see you"

so, he did and it was a battle royale all night for the comforter. which was fine because part of the night i was over heating. this happens occassionally. the fluffy warmth of my blanky gets so much that it's sakes alive! i get the vapas! (read: "vapors" with bad southern belle accent). but the rest of the time it was like 2 degrees in my room and so we pulled and pushed all night.

and like, then on top of that, i didn't really feel like i slept much. i felt like i was slipping in and out of sleep constantly all night. i guess i was more in sleep than out, because i don't remember any of the 34 times that jon said he had to pull the blanket away from me, but i felt like i wasn't sleeping at all.

and, i only "slept" for like 4.5 hours anyway. so whatever.

then, i had to drive my brother to school. that was great, since he was in a shit-tay mood. he was just the worst. i wanted to kick his ass out and tell him to walk, but i too understand the morning crankies, so i really couldn't say anything. you and i both know how much of a bitchie i can be in the morning. i hang my head in shame knowing that i can never NEVER EVER call anyone on being a fuckface in the morning, because i am the fuckingestface of them all.

but, we drove this back way to his school and it was really beautiful. it was what i imagine new england to look like, if you can believe that. it was foggy and hilly and there were trees with leaves all colors: red, orange, burgundy, green, yellow. it was perfectly nice.

except for the total whore who took it upon himself to drive 14 miles/hr the whole way. and then, a school bus pulled up in front of the whore, so it was like, bus+whore=frustrated and cursing me.

i tried to be good, i tried to just enjoy the morning air and its fog and its autumn leaves.

but i had grumpy bitchface jon next to me, and i only had 4.5 hours of sleep, and i just wasn't having it.

it really was pretty though.

now i'm in the office, it's really quiet and sigur ros is playing softly next to me. i wonder if you would like them. i have the feeling you would not. i think, though, you would really really like the video they have for their song Svefn G Englar. it's a group of downs syndrome kids dancing in a field, and they are all in white sleeping gowns, and they have angel's wings pinned to their backs. i think. if i am remembering correctly. but i know you are really into that, it touches you and you turn on your heartlight. it's a beautiful song, too. i'll have to bring them with me when i come see you.

which is the day after tomorrow.

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dudebro: i am flizipping out. i am so excited. remember how i could care less what was happening here right now? not that i care so much to begin with...so you can imagine how little i am caring! all i know is, we get to go on drives, and look at houses, and hang out, and get sloppy drunk and laugh and hug and i'll get to see your beautiful face and and and and!!

and we get to stay up all night talking! and like, not on the phone!

rock and roll.

it's a good thing i have coffee to keep me uncomfortably awake while i am here. that and dark chocolate that someone laid out in lieu of left over halloween candy. i tell you, i can walk past milk chocolate 123452345 times a day. i am not tempted in the least. because as anyone with tastebuds knows, milk chocolate is gross unless accompanied by other things and even then those other things would be better accompanied by dark chocolate. and don't eve get me started on white chocolate, because white chocolate, quite simply, is the devil.

but set out dark chocolate and i get all antsy and like, shift around in my seat like a little kid. that stuff is the jammie jam. oh! and dark chocolate plus banana? hell yes.

not that there's any bananas around here, but still.

oh! and one last thing:

persimmons? they rule. i am going to see if i can overdose on them tonight.

i think, dear friend, that i am addicted.

love,

jessica

ps--do not ever EVER drink watermelon fruitwater right after you finish your morning coffee.