2001-09-10 & 2:54 p.m. : the seeming and the meaning

"i'm gonna blow it out today, jessica. time to get back into shape"

[from behind book]"rock on, Co-Worker"

"are you ok? you seem...like...the bitter one today"

"i'm not talking, how am i bitter?"

"nevermind"

i don't know how many more silent days i can take.