2001-06-27 & 12:32 p.m. : longer day
ahhh, man. i don't know if you could have cheered me up, you know? so don't feel bad. it's just like that with me sometimes. i come crashing down. and then i am splintered all over the floor. i feel like i am disappearing, hearing my internal monologue getting softer and softer and softer. there is nothing in this world i want more right now than to be in bed. i don't know why i stay up so late, looking at my bed sideways like an enemy before staying up for a few extra hours that i definitely should be using for sleep. especially before a day like today. my eyes are like opiate smoker's half lidded plates of glass. everything is in between gauze and backward sunlight. and during lunch, it started to rain. i just need a nap. a short one. then i'll be alright. i think. |