work is actually good. people are really nice and benefits are great.

i watched henry fool the other night and felt guilty about my life.

i would feel as if i let myself down if i had ever had a clear notion of the person i wanted to be.

well, i guess that's a bit of a lie because i know what kind of person i want to be. but i don't know what kind of things i want to do.

i have some ideas, but that's about it.

it's probably a bad sign that i don't really want to do much of anything.

except be out of debt and have the ability to do whatever i want, when i want it.

in addition to having the chronic condition of not being able to grow up, i am fairly screwed because i have the chronic condition of not being able to bring myself to play the lottery, ever.