it's ok, i think, though, because i believe i have fallen into some sort of fucked up depression.

maybe i'm going to get my period soon, but it's dark. i've been in bed all day, sleeping intermittently. i can't remember what time i went to bed last night, but i think it was before midnight.

oh, and i'm not drinking, so it's not being hungover. i just don't feel like doing anything.

i even got my new monitor and i haven't hooked it up yet. this one is working for the moment so i'm not worried about it, but still i've made it my thing to do.

as in "if i just hook up my monitor today, then i will have Done Something."

it's been a real long time since i have felt down like this. it's probably because i have been Thinking the last few days and because i am alone here and because some days are just worse than others.