hello people, i am back in the kiosk, back rocking that sweet non-eating lunch hour because i am addicted to the internet.

things with me are pretty good. i got a great letter yesterday. and also, i sent out a really long letter back!

i love love love writing letters, y'all, it feels almost as good as painting.

you know what i wish? have you seen that crappy movie "strange days"?

now that was one shit-tay movie. but i thought it was a great idea that was poorly executed. at least the idea that you could somehow record experiences and have someone else "download" them to their consciousness...well, it brings up really interesting questions (most of which are fairly easily answered, i think), but just the idea of it is cool.

i wish i could record for you parts of driving home from work, when i am going over the water and the light is just right and i am hand-sailing along to the music and maybe even singing...i wish you could feel the freedom of that, through me.

and even more, i wish you could feel how i feel in my chest when i am walking under cherry-blossom trees whose blooms are soaked wet with rain, drops like tears falling on my face and hands, the sadness of that.

and what it feels like when i am laying on the steps leading down to my apt, looking up at the sky while i smoke a cigarette and watch the clouds, the hopefulness of that.

i wish that there was a way for you to feel that through me.