2003-06-07 & 1:44 a.m. : tonight's the day, candle
i've developed (or, at least, just become aware of) this thing where if i'm nervous i will rub behind my right ear.
i've developed (or, at least, just become aware of) this thing where if i'm nervous i will rub behind my right ear.
and the right side of my neck.
i like to feel my glands and the skin move over my tense muscles, i like digging my nails into the soft skin behind my ears.
if i haven't bitten my nails recently i make cuts on accident, and i can feel the skin getting shiny.
i wonder, sometimes, what the marks on my body will tell about me when i die, if my shyness will be read like verse carved into my skin, if my inability to look people in the eye will be translated into heiroglyphs of hiccups and false starts behind my ears and across my throat.
