2003-02-11 & 4:04 p.m. : walk home

i've been crying all day, with my door closed, with the lights off.

i think i have caught heart-sickness.

the sadness is so deep, everything is making me sad, even beautiful things like music and friends.

even talking on the phone with my brother, who called me on his smoke break because he was thinking of me, i was the only person he wanted to talk to.

tears ran down my face and i hiccupped silent sobs so as not to alarm him.