2003-02-09 & 9:41 p.m. : we're all wounded children reaching up to a nuturing parent, reaching out like beggars in the street
today, i am just going to sit in the dark and listen to joe frank shows.
today, i am just going to sit in the dark and listen to joe frank shows.
i am lonely again, and i may have to, like tobias schneebaum explained in an interview in the movie "keep the river on your right", learn to accept my life as it is now: i am alone, i am not wealthy, not middle class even (anymore, since leaving home), and i probably will always be alone and poor(ish).
i don't know if it's inertia that would keep me this way, if it's just part of my character to be alone and lonely, or if it's something else.
it's so exhausting, sometimes, to be continually working through yourself. like walking through quicksand, or being hip deep in snow.
