2001-12-17 & 9:06 a.m. : the wind is making speeches
today, there was a big accident in the caldecott tunnel and i counted 8 smashed cars when i came through the other side and everyone slowed down to see what they could see so that their stories to bosses and friends about why they were late for their appointments would be as real as possible and maybe believed. and then, when i was on the corner of grand and telegraph, i looked to my left and i noticed, for the first time, that there is a golden windowed building and in the reflection of the golden windows, the thick rain clouds ran races and my eyes were on the clock and the galloping clouds while my head spun around a little bit tired and held tight by invisible strong hands. and then, while i was crossing grand and broadway, i didn't look to my left and a car ran a red light and came so close to hitting my car that my whole body shot through with nerves they didn't even slow down, they came right at me like they knew my name and i drove the rest of the way to my office with white knuckles and lips almost bleeding from biting teeth. but now i am in my cube, and i am listening to something new, and i am catching my breath and listening to the quiet, and i almost drove straight past work to come to your house, because i know that if i came to your window at 8am, in the pouring rain you would still hug me, and give me tea and maybe let me sleep for the day on your floor and right now, i just kind of want to hide with my head under my folded arms pretending nothing is real and that i'm not here and knowing if i just get some sleep i'll feel a little better. [TIME Well, the smart money's on Harlow And the moon is in the street The shadow boys are breaking all the laws And you're east of East St. Louis And the wind is making speeches And the rain sounds like a round of applause Napoleon is weeping in the Carnival saloon His invisible fiance is in the mirror The band is going home It's raining hammers, it's raining nails Yes, it's true, there's nothing left for him down here And it's Time Time Time And it's Time Time Time And it's Time Time Time That you love And it's Time Time Time And they all pretend they're Orphans And their memory's like a train You can see it getting smaller as it pulls away And the things you can't remember Tell the things you can't forget that History puts a saint in every dream Well she said she'd stick around Until the bandages came off But these mamas boys just don't know when to quit And Matilda asks the sailors are those dreams Or are those prayers So just close your eyes, son And this won't hurt a bit Well, things are pretty lousy for a calendar girl The boys just dive right off the cars And splash into the streets And when she's on a roll she pulls a razor From her boot and a thousand Pigeons fall around her feet So put a candle in the window And a kiss upon his lips Till the dish outside the window fills with rain Just like a stranger with the weeds in your heart And pay the fiddler off till I come back again] |