Tales of brave (10:10:58 PM): wow, i don't know!

Tales of brave (10:11:07 PM): i know i drool an awful lot sometimes

Tales of brave (10:11:16 PM): i sleep on my side or my stomach

kafkawastherage (10:12:33 PM): me too

kafkawastherage (10:12:47 PM): and soemtimes I fart in my sleep

kafkawastherage (10:12:47 PM): haha

Tales of brave (10:12:49 PM): i hope i am pretty when i sleep

Tales of brave (10:13:05 PM): that's the sort of thing that could trick someone into loving me for reals

Tales of brave (10:13:16 PM): that's the sort of thing that tricks me into loving people

Tales of brave (10:13:21 PM): or at least did, in the PAST

Tales of brave (10:13:57 PM): but as we both know, robot tigers from outerspace don't fall in love.

kafkawastherage (10:14:04 PM): n ono

kafkawastherage (10:14:09 PM): but

kafkawastherage (10:14:14 PM): central-red does

Tales of brave (10:14:18 PM): shhhhhhhh

Tales of brave (10:14:20 PM): SLANDER

kafkawastherage (10:14:27 PM): : D

Tales of brave (10:14:41 PM): i fall in love with the wrong ones

Tales of brave (10:15:07 PM): i need to find me a nice fat girl. with big huge breasts. and a huge fat ass. and thick soft wedding thighs

kafkawastherage (10:15:14 PM): fall in love iwth me, I will send you lilacs

Tales of brave (10:15:21 PM): ok

kafkawastherage (10:15:24 PM): : D

Tales of brave (10:15:29 PM): i am all for polygamy now

Tales of brave (10:15:38 PM): i don't believe in soulmates

Tales of brave (10:15:42 PM): because i don't believe in souls

Tales of brave (10:15:43 PM): BUT

Tales of brave (10:15:50 PM): i do believe you can love people for your whole life

Tales of brave (10:16:01 PM): especially where lilacs are concerned

Tales of brave (10:16:20 PM): if you sent me lilacs, i would pluck the petals and sleep on them. naked.

Tales of brave (10:16:26 PM): or, at the very least, topless.

kafkawastherage (10:16:53 PM): jessica that is so pretty

Tales of brave (10:17:17 PM): sleeping on petals is the best

Tales of brave (10:17:36 PM): when i was growing up, there were rosebushes outside my bedroom window

Tales of brave (10:17:48 PM): and when they bloomed, there were hundreds of them, it seemed

kafkawastherage (10:17:49 PM): I will send you lilacs in a chemistry flask

kafkawastherage (10:17:56 PM): like a scientist.

kafkawastherage (10:18:00 PM): uh huh

Tales of brave (10:18:22 PM): i would sit on my window sil and cut the stems and the first ones got hung upside down on my wall (so they would keep their shape)

Tales of brave (10:18:34 PM): the second round of cuts got put in a vase on my night table

Tales of brave (10:18:46 PM): the third got collected for bath water

Tales of brave (10:18:58 PM): and the fourth would go in my pillow cases and bedsheets

Tales of brave (10:19:18 PM): if i ever have a daughter, i will plant rosebushes outside her window so that she can do the same thing.

Tales of brave (10:19:33 PM): oh, jenn?

kafkawastherage (10:19:38 PM): yes

Tales of brave (10:19:53 PM): lilacs in a scientist's flask? i'd melt

kafkawastherage (10:21:06 PM): that is the best thing I have heard jessica.

Tales of brave (10:21:14 PM): that i'd melt?

kafkawastherage (10:21:23 PM): that and the roses

Tales of brave (10:21:33 PM): oh, it was the best thing ever

kafkawastherage (10:21:45 PM): you shoudl totally write a book

Tales of brave (10:21:46 PM): especially because i did it all in secret. the bathing and the bedsheets

Tales of brave (10:22:03 PM): and no one ever came into my room, so they didn't know about the walls or vase either

Tales of brave (10:22:17 PM): a book about cutting roses?

Tales of brave (10:22:28 PM): do you want to know a silly thing i used to do?

kafkawastherage (10:22:34 PM): yes

kafkawastherage (10:22:59 PM): no a book about how terribly romantic you really are, you should write love letters to yourself.

Tales of brave (10:23:13 PM): sometimes there were so many of them i used to pluck the petals and put them between my fingers and toes, and i would lay down on my bed and put them on my eyelids and my belly button and nipples

Tales of brave (10:23:20 PM): and listen to kate bush

Tales of brave (10:23:25 PM): i know, i am romantic. it's a curse

Tales of brave (10:23:40 PM): that's why i donated my brain to the robot tiger army from outerspace.

Tales of brave (10:24:11 PM): you are the first person i ever ever ever told that to. about the petals

Tales of brave (10:24:22 PM): did you give me wonder woman truth serum?

kafkawastherage (10:24:48 PM): no, I m just a nice girl, who likes to be told pretty stories

Tales of brave (10:24:54 PM): that's true

Tales of brave (10:25:00 PM): you are nice girl for sure.

Tales of brave (10:25:22 PM): have you ever done anything like that?

Tales of brave (10:25:32 PM): i spent a lot of time alone, in the middle of the night. i did all sorts of things.

kafkawastherage (10:25:33 PM): I used to make my own perfume from roses

kafkawastherage (10:25:38 PM): or I tied to.

Tales of brave (10:25:46 PM): yeah, it's hard. i don't know how they do it

kafkawastherage (10:25:50 PM): like Id boil flower petals of all kinds actually

Tales of brave (10:25:53 PM): you know what i want really badly?

kafkawastherage (10:25:58 PM): what?

Tales of brave (10:26:27 PM): if i ever ever find a perfume or lotion or shower gel or any smell good thing ever that smells like freshly brewed jasmine tea...well, i'll spend all my money on it

Tales of brave (10:26:38 PM): i want to walk by people and have them go "ah!"

kafkawastherage (10:26:44 PM): I love jassmine

kafkawastherage (10:26:48 PM): when I was younger

kafkawastherage (10:26:56 PM): and I baby sat in the summer

Tales of brave (10:27:07 PM): but jasmine tea smells like 1000000x better than just jasmine

Tales of brave (10:27:16 PM): except for star jasmine.

Tales of brave (10:27:25 PM): they probably smell just as good as each other

Tales of brave (10:27:48 PM): my house had a huge star jasmine bush in the front. i'd pull the blooms and suck on them because they are sweet

Tales of brave (10:27:58 PM): and i'd put those in bath water and in my bedsheets too.

kafkawastherage (10:28:16 PM): are star jasmine orange?

Tales of brave (10:28:22 PM): go on tell me about babysitting in summer

Tales of brave (10:28:30 PM): no, they are tiny little white blossoms

Tales of brave (10:28:43 PM): they are usually used in traffic medians in so cal

Tales of brave (10:28:54 PM): and in early spring the whole world smells good.

Tales of brave (10:28:59 PM): at least in the town where i grew up

kafkawastherage (10:29:16 PM): yes, and they are very small and their leaves are tough

Tales of brave (10:29:30 PM): yes

Tales of brave (10:29:36 PM): but they are white

kafkawastherage (10:29:50 PM): those are the kind that were outside the house i babysat in

kafkawastherage (10:30:10 PM): yeah, the orange things I mentioned I think were honeysuckle

Tales of brave (10:30:13 PM): i think they are called star jasmine. when i was little i thought they were honeysuckles because of how they taste

Tales of brave (10:30:15 PM): yeah!

kafkawastherage (10:30:37 PM): they grew in the park by my house

kafkawastherage (10:30:45 PM): and Id eat them, or suck the juice from them.

Tales of brave (10:30:54 PM): they are the best

Tales of brave (10:31:07 PM): if i ever have a house, i want them all over my property

Tales of brave (10:31:17 PM): i also want to have a lot of babies

Tales of brave (10:31:47 PM): i know, that was random, but i was just thinking of a house full of flowers, and it should have babies running around too.

kafkawastherage (10:31:53 PM): I think you would be a good mom

Tales of brave (10:32:05 PM): i think i would probably be the best mom in the world.

kafkawastherage (10:32:09 PM): you arent a crazy spaz at all.

Tales of brave (10:32:23 PM): not unless i am dancing alone in the bedroom

Tales of brave (10:32:29 PM): but, even then i am kinda smooth.

Tales of brave (10:32:43 PM): and i love to dance with little kids. i'd make them dance with me all the time.

kafkawastherage (10:34:51 PM): haha, jessica, you really are like the prettiest girl.

kafkawastherage (10:35:00 PM): you have pretty stories for days.

kafkawastherage (10:36:11 PM): : D

Tales of brave (10:36:45 PM): jenn, do you write love letters?

kafkawastherage (10:37:08 PM): Ive written matt some

kafkawastherage (10:37:51 PM): I never loved anybody before him, so I had no one to write to.

kafkawastherage (10:37:55 PM): no that's not true

kafkawastherage (10:38:03 PM): I wrote love letters to antonio

kafkawastherage (10:38:07 PM): but I didnt love him

Tales of brave (10:38:37 PM): i think writing love letters is the most fun thing to do in the whole world

Tales of brave (10:38:44 PM): i wrote a lot of them, in secret, in iowa

Tales of brave (10:38:47 PM): to no one

kafkawastherage (10:38:53 PM): he turned out to like boys.

Tales of brave (10:39:00 PM): i threw them all out. i should have kept them

kafkawastherage (10:39:08 PM): you totally should have

Tales of brave (10:39:14 PM): gay boys need love letters too

Tales of brave (10:39:26 PM): but, probably from other boys

kafkawastherage (10:39:27 PM): it is nice when you are feeling down

kafkawastherage (10:39:34 PM): to read them

Tales of brave (10:39:48 PM): that's when i'd write them, because i was down a lot in iowa

Tales of brave (10:39:58 PM): but i always cried while i wrote them.

Tales of brave (10:40:08 PM): and then i'd tear them up and throw them away

Tales of brave (10:40:22 PM): and drink more whiskey, and smoke more cigarettes.

kafkawastherage (10:40:25 PM): when matt makes me cry I write them too.

Tales of brave (10:40:25 PM): and forget about them.

Tales of brave (10:40:39 PM): i am such a girl!

Tales of brave (10:40:47 PM): when he makes you sad cry?

kafkawastherage (10:40:50 PM): it's okay, it is cute

kafkawastherage (10:40:53 PM): yes

Tales of brave (10:40:54 PM): i'll fucking cut his nuts off

Tales of brave (10:41:04 PM): with a wine key blade

kafkawastherage (10:41:07 PM): haha

kafkawastherage (10:41:15 PM): Ive made him cry before too

kafkawastherage (10:41:19 PM): not on purpose

kafkawastherage (10:41:28 PM): only when we talk about things that are scary

Tales of brave (10:41:28 PM): i never make people cry on purpose

kafkawastherage (10:41:45 PM): I like to kiss his cheeks when he cries

kafkawastherage (10:42:03 PM): and get the salt taste on my lips

Tales of brave (10:42:07 PM): i like that too

Tales of brave (10:42:15 PM): the way tears taste

Tales of brave (10:42:28 PM): and how my eyes look when they are red and glassy from crying

kafkawastherage (10:42:33 PM): it feels like I am in a movie almost, but better

Tales of brave (10:43:12 PM): cinematic moments are better when you can taste and smell and touch them.

kafkawastherage (10:43:37 PM): because neither one of us are beautiful we are flawed and it feels more real

Tales of brave (10:43:56 PM): oh jenn

Tales of brave (10:44:05 PM): the flaws are the prettiest parts. don't you know that?

kafkawastherage (10:44:32 PM): yeah

kafkawasthe rage played by a nice girl who likes pretty stories

tales of brave played by a robot girl still cursed with a heart

editing by central-red

dedicated to the memory of pablo neruda and the sea.

"I feel, foolish and sad

and you arrive and you are lightening

glancing off the peach trees."