2001-08-31 & 10:07 a.m. : this is a long drive for someone with nothing to think about
this morning! much more awake!
concerned over her concern for me, i took stock and thought about what changes i could make this morning vs yesterday morning to arrive at work safely and without killing anyone. so, to compensate for the fact that i aimed for a bedtime of midnight but actually went to bed somewhere around a quarter to two, this morning i did many things i did not do yesterday morning:
i showered before leaving from work rather than the night before. (ahem)
i got the 20oz coffee rather than the 16oz coffee
i wore my NEW SHOES* rather than my slippers
i opened the window all the way rather than just an inch with the heater on my feet
i wore my favorite blue shirt with the red Hollister Recreational Division Basketball Championship a-shirt that i got on fourth of july when nisha and i went down to santa cruz underneath rather than whatever it was i wore yesterday. i don't know how much difference that made, but i like these pieces of clothing more than probably anything else i have, and i like to talk about them. [nod]
i listened to prince rather than the red house painters, figuring driver seat cage dancing would be more conducive to staying awake than thinking about things desired and thinking about things lost
i smoked 2 cigarettes rather than one
i think that's it. and though i didn't get drowsy once the whole way, i have to admit that i don't know if my commute was any safer, as driving with a cigarette in one hand, a 20oz coffee in the other, while cage dancing may not be the best way to be careening through the caldecott and down the 24.
but i made it in one piece, so huzzah!
in other news, though i wanted to i did not sleep in my NEW SHOES because i realized if i did that, i wouldn't be able to reap the soft benefits of stuart sleeping on my feet.
also, i am going to be home alone all weekend, and i don't know what to do with myself. i looked into getting a train ticket to pdx, but amtrak can kiss my sweet sweet ass as $490 for a roundtrip ticket for a 17 hr trip EACH WAY is not how i travel, bud. i would get up there at 4pm saturday and have to leave early early sunday morning to get home in time for work tuesday.
FUCK THAT.
i also thought about driving home, but that's where my sister and her bf are going to be, and i don't want to have to sleep on the couch.
FUCK THAT.
so, i am thinking of spending time with my girl on the island and her her new friend. maybe buying a bunch of cigarettes and alcohol and getting snot-flying drunk simply because i can.
maybe i'll learn about being brave and go to the american analog set/her space holiday show tonight alone at the bottom of the hill.
it's three days of solitude, people. there's a lot of stuff i could do.
i think, though, i will get my unruly mane cut. this hair, it's out of control people. I CAN FEEL IT CASCADE DOWN MY BACK NOW. CASCADE! and though it's the general consensus that i have wild philosopher hair, whatever THAT is, i would rather have cute girl hair. because then, this unruly philosopherness that i am supposed to have will be like a secret weapon. people will think they are dealing with merely a cute girl and then SPLA-DOW! i shall turn them about with critical thinking and the ability to read the most opaque texts and then unpack the arguments therein.
i'll be like a superhero**. but not really. because i wouldn't use my superpowers to fight crime.
pffft, fight crime. i can't even use my superpowers to get a decent job.
christ.
NB:
*to view my new shoes, please follow these directions to the letter:
a)go to stevemaddenmens.com
b)turn off the annoying music
c)select the shoes called "the comet" (THE COMET PEOPLE. THAT'S COOL RIGHT THERE)
d)this is key: SELECT THE BLACK PAIR
e)now turn them over, make them spin, look at the top and bottom. if you are at work, try not to touch yourself. if you are at home, cruise yourself like the slut you are.
**to hear more about superpowers and cultivate a new obsession in general, go to thisamericanlife.org. then select "staff picks". then select the show entitled "superpowers". a fantastic listen. this, if nothing else, will make you love me.
this morning! much more awake!
concerned over her concern for me, i took stock and thought about what changes i could make this morning vs yesterday morning to arrive at work safely and without killing anyone. so, to compensate for the fact that i aimed for a bedtime of midnight but actually went to bed somewhere around a quarter to two, this morning i did many things i did not do yesterday morning:
i showered before leaving from work rather than the night before. (ahem)
i got the 20oz coffee rather than the 16oz coffee
i wore my NEW SHOES* rather than my slippers
i opened the window all the way rather than just an inch with the heater on my feet
i wore my favorite blue shirt with the red Hollister Recreational Division Basketball Championship a-shirt that i got on fourth of july when nisha and i went down to santa cruz underneath rather than whatever it was i wore yesterday. i don't know how much difference that made, but i like these pieces of clothing more than probably anything else i have, and i like to talk about them. [nod]
i listened to prince rather than the red house painters, figuring driver seat cage dancing would be more conducive to staying awake than thinking about things desired and thinking about things lost
i smoked 2 cigarettes rather than one
i think that's it. and though i didn't get drowsy once the whole way, i have to admit that i don't know if my commute was any safer, as driving with a cigarette in one hand, a 20oz coffee in the other, while cage dancing may not be the best way to be careening through the caldecott and down the 24.
but i made it in one piece, so huzzah!
in other news, though i wanted to i did not sleep in my NEW SHOES because i realized if i did that, i wouldn't be able to reap the soft benefits of stuart sleeping on my feet.
also, i am going to be home alone all weekend, and i don't know what to do with myself. i looked into getting a train ticket to pdx, but amtrak can kiss my sweet sweet ass as $490 for a roundtrip ticket for a 17 hr trip EACH WAY is not how i travel, bud. i would get up there at 4pm saturday and have to leave early early sunday morning to get home in time for work tuesday.
FUCK THAT.
i also thought about driving home, but that's where my sister and her bf are going to be, and i don't want to have to sleep on the couch.
FUCK THAT.
so, i am thinking of spending time with my girl on the island and her her new friend. maybe buying a bunch of cigarettes and alcohol and getting snot-flying drunk simply because i can.
maybe i'll learn about being brave and go to the american analog set/her space holiday show tonight alone at the bottom of the hill.
it's three days of solitude, people. there's a lot of stuff i could do.
i think, though, i will get my unruly mane cut. this hair, it's out of control people. I CAN FEEL IT CASCADE DOWN MY BACK NOW. CASCADE! and though it's the general consensus that i have wild philosopher hair, whatever THAT is, i would rather have cute girl hair. because then, this unruly philosopherness that i am supposed to have will be like a secret weapon. people will think they are dealing with merely a cute girl and then SPLA-DOW! i shall turn them about with critical thinking and the ability to read the most opaque texts and then unpack the arguments therein.
i'll be like a superhero**. but not really. because i wouldn't use my superpowers to fight crime.
pffft, fight crime. i can't even use my superpowers to get a decent job.
christ.
NB:
*to view my new shoes, please follow these directions to the letter:
a)go to stevemaddenmens.com
b)turn off the annoying music
c)select the shoes called "the comet" (THE COMET PEOPLE. THAT'S COOL RIGHT THERE)
d)this is key: SELECT THE BLACK PAIR
e)now turn them over, make them spin, look at the top and bottom. if you are at work, try not to touch yourself. if you are at home, cruise yourself like the slut you are.
**to hear more about superpowers and cultivate a new obsession in general, go to thisamericanlife.org. then select "staff picks". then select the show entitled "superpowers". a fantastic listen. this, if nothing else, will make you love me.
